The woman from Germany stopped emailing me a couple weekends ago. Apparently she got suspicious and felt that I was being dishonest with her. Which in all honesty I had been - truly honest. The english language is very convoluted, that coupled with the fact that she had been reading mine and Stunner's websites. "The site is not really a good place to pick up on your english skills" - I warned with great relish. But she failed to listen. She often swung between the ability to think and behave in a normal and rational manner and partial lunacy. Much like most women. So I consulted similar - an expert/non-compos-mentis. Because in truth and in fact I really liked getting long emails from a worker class girl in germany. Its better than spam and I wanted to fix things. She (the expert) told me not to reply to her(the german) emails and let her cool off a bit. When the cool off point was reached she would email me back and apologize for calling me a rat. And everything would be cop-acetic.
It has been over a week and the expert said that if I send an email I would lose the "battle of wills" or whatever women call it. I miss it though - the emails in my inbox. She would, in brief, irregular bursts send me exquisitely beautiful pictures. Pictures that she took in her photo studio at work. (Not of herself, I know what your thinking, stop it.) I miss decoding the broken english emails that she would send to me almost nightly. Trying to perceive the intended meaning of what she wrote. Her english was improving and I applauded her for that. I would promptly reply to her using the most elementary forms of english as I could. Often times she would misconceive what I said and reply with something from her new dictionary;
> O.K..... Good that you understand me but sorry i > don't really understand what you are talking about. You haven't done ......gangbangs?...... groupsex?
What have I being doing since the year started? Work. Nothing much really. I am taking it easy on the programming, this year. I have been mostly chatting to people on the phone, the bus and on msn. Getting to know some new, old and interesting people, women and friends. Especially after I read/heard somewhere that 90% of people murdered are murdered by people they know. So hopefully maybe Miss Williams will kill me that is if I don't kill her first. Especially with how the murder rate going in this country at the moment - you never know when the next love triangle will spring up and you happen to be in it. Everybody wakes up early in the morning so I would probably get killed in my sleep.
I have been getting to know my friends much more and I probably have not reached to you yet so don't bug me about it. I probably will go to ATI this year for the first i.e. if I manage to survive my friends and car loan payments. There are some really messed-up friends with issues other there, I really would not have imagined. How selfish a bitch can one girl be? I probably get killed for that one but she will not read the second paragraph of anything. I got nothing but love for you all - really. Since I am a good listener I might become a therapist - especially with the extra brain space I have from not programming.
Mad Bull commented: It really [b]IS[/b] all about getting to know people, bonding with them and then killing them. Good that you've realised it, Owen. ... read 12 more
Its never too late to start planning for next year. Especially now that I am still on the "end of year high". A high not unlike cake with too much red label wine. I expect it wear off by January 10, when everything starts moving at its regular pace. This is not one of those ridiculous "new year's resolution" list. But a mere outline of what is to be done eventually. I plan to be less aloof than usual because I have a lot to get done this new year. A more friendly and caring person likely a grenade or wayward train. The plan of world domination is put into full effect. Only cream and bastards rise.
New years resolutions are really pathetic anyway. I would rather keep it simple and say that I am not going to be evil in 2006. Or at least less evil. And as far as the website is concerned, I've done all I can do and version 5 should be up there sooner or later - at least an empty folder. I am not sure what kind of monster it will actually be. Or as MB said what kind a hook it will have. Right now I don't even have the concept or the color scheme. Just keep checking the space. Maybe a social network?
You should also see the forum link on the home page. It not a real forum. Just the a blog that looks like a forum. Why? because I can.
The past week has been one of those weeks of too much work, failed tests and the flu. I should have tried harder with that girl I met on the bus. It really should not have ended that way. I should have made that extra effort. Especially since I have another paper due today. I should have proposed to her right then and there on the bus. You never know, she could be rich. A rich woman in Jamaica is hard to find, even harder to marry and do your assignments. On my list of ways to escape certain poverty, marrying a right woman is right up there beside working hard and diligently and or winning the lottery. I am not picky on the woman either I am a nice guy and I love all women. My only condition is that she have some sort of skill and be able to an assignment or two. She maybe the reason I'm alive. The why or wherefore I survive. The one I care for through the rough and dreary years. It not all about the money.
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I was watching the weather last night. checking out the weather forcaster who was wearing a black and yellow suit/thing. She looked like she was pregnant but in that hot-mother-of-your-children early pregnancy stage. The only thing I care about in the weather are huricanes but tonight the remote had died and I just sat there watching local television. I also noticed something odd. At the very point when the show ends she begins to smile. A very big smile like the one you get from the good looking air hostess on an Air Jamaica flight - right before breakfast. The kinda smile that makes you smile on the inside so hard that it flows through you like an illegal amphetamine-based synthetic drug with euphoric and hallucinatory effects or a track on the new madonna album. Then when we both realise (me and the weather forcaster) that the "cut to commercials" is taking too long and she could not hold the smile any longer. She broke her smile. It left me with a sad feeling in side.
Earlier that day I was sitting reading last last week's sunday gleaner, becuase of a flux in the space time continuum, I missed out on reading it LAST WEEK. I don't know why I buy the newspaper anyway because it really makes your fingers black with ink which transfers to everything you touch. I usually feel like I am missing out on local events, murders and competitions, so I make sure to buy it from the paper guy when he visits early on a sunday morning. Usually riding around a bicycle with really old clothes on. Hes a cool old guy. Its kinda like a subscription service without the subscription. This week I am buying the Jamaica Observer because I hate when everybody is reading the same stuff I am reading. Plus I like to live ON THE EDGE.
Usually in the auto section is a picture of car I can't buy and a full review. I scan through the auto-classifieds. Then I check out the Socials Section to see what the overly rich are doing in their non-blood-sucking time. The "careers" section has a "job-hunting while pregnant article" with a picture of a very white, very pregnant belly. The middle section has a magazine called "Outlook". The title picture is of a guy who's first name is Sunday. Further in is a article on a jamaican harp maker. There is also an entire section on the ADA motor show 2005 which I missed because I was too busy to read the paper LAST WEEK.
stunner commented: I hate when it blacks up my finger too. I like to read the outlookand the Business section...dont know why I reas the business section, aint helping be to be financially better off. I hardly buy the Sunday Gleaner..as I'm not moving at this time. ... read 8 more