written by owen, published 2024-May-21, comment
I have been really bad at updating the log book due to being lazy or habitually taking pictures all the freaking time. But I cannot complain, it is addictive; like a new age drug that you inject right into your sub concious brain. I need to balance it out but alas as with any drug you get sucked in sink or drown or whatever the water gives you. You need to spend your time doing something - might as well do something you enjoy. No regrets.
Nothing really matters in the end. All that matters are the things you give away for free and the people you help along the way. The experiences are bus stops along the way. A random sequence of occurrences lined up in a neat little row for your enjoyment or suffering. Or both.
Being thorough and patient often is its own curse. Once I find something I like I end up in a sort of corner where I have eliminated all other options and nothing else can quite live up to that thing that I found. I often find myself going back to the state where I had not found that thing - just for the kicks. But then always ending up at the same end zone: Hoping for a different result. Amazed at how amazing everything is but the amaze is limited to that one thing that is not even that amazing but is close enough.
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written by owen, published 2024-Feb-18, comment
Being thorough and patient often is its own curse. Once you find something you like you end up in a sort of a corner where you have eliminated all other options and nothing else can quite live up to that thing that you found. I often find myself going back to that unfound state, then searching endlessly but always ending up at the same place. Hoping for a different result. Amazed at how amazing everything is but then narrows down to that one thing that is not even that amazing but is close enough. It's just how I am.
You will rarely catch me talking about my personal projects. Its not because I do not like talking about them but because I dont want them to become "work". I just do them because they peek my interest at the time. The last thing I want is somebody to ask me about it every time they see me. Especially when I am not actively in the zone of that project. Some of my projects are really rapid fire, quick stops in the bathroom while others are multi-year collect-a-tons.
There is this one bar that I have been wanting to take a picture of for about a week now. I saw a project on insta. The trick is that the picture only works if the bar is closed. But the place never seems to be closed! I went there on a sunday morning at 8am and it was open with dudes hanging out washing a car in front. I went there on Ash Wednesday at 10am - it was open. 5pm after work and yup - its open. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!
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