written by owen on 2004-Nov-22.
People especially women have referred to me as being Emotionally Distant. I must admit that I am not a bundle of emotion (they knew what they were getting into) though I do smile often uncontrollably like a small child after being breast fed. It is not so much a weakness as it is an annoying reflex action that happens when something runs through my head. Good or evil. You get what you pay for.
Maybe I habitually avoid from giving compliments and saying words like "I like", "head gone", "I think it is best if", "lovely", "Dido Armstrong is my current favorite artist after Madonna and Sade", "sweet", "I have play quite a few video games ever since I was ten", "she is cute", "I am so obsessed with etc", "I think Alicia Keys has weird eyes", "I have watched every episode of...", "I prefer chicken but would rather have beef", "that looks nice", "I could love you if you weren't such and annoying bitch", "shag now or shag later", "chacca chacca", "ring a ring a rosy pocket full" etc. I am literally handicapped. Too much computer time - too little talk time. Small talk simply is not in my skill set. Anti-social?
There was a company team building thing about six months ago. I know that was a long time ago. We had meeting where everybody had to talk about everybody else. Eventually one person refered to me as weird and for lack of a better word everybody else started using the same word and it became this big joke all day. Thanks guys, no christmas presents for you.