I know I have been posting nothing but Food pictures lately. I happen to get into these self destructive habits where I find something cool and I just keep doing it, like a monkey, until I get bored or I have exhausted all possible permutations of the problem. I hate calculus 2 though, that stuff is evil. I find something interesting and I will gnaw at it until there is nothing left - I'm not obsessive, I just like having a river to swim in.
I said I was going to redesign the website, I will get to it eventually, I have been working on secret stuff for other people so that I can get more money cuz I need more drugs. Added to the fact that I have been building a game for the past 3 months. The game does not contribute to my need for drugs, it contributes to my asexual tendency/need to play with myself. I try to balance things out or maybe I am just avoiding the problem of world hunger and cold fusion. I donot know.
I will get back on track eventually, one way or the other. I imagine that if I take enough naps in a day, drink 8 glasses of water - I should eventually get so tired that I will get up and do something. I am half way there. What is life without a series of unpredictable annoyances? Anyway I only have a few more food pictures left. And if all goes well and the world doesn't kill me I will fall right in sync with the rhythm of nature.
I'm fine, I'm on FB as "Owen Soft". and I am rarely on twitter as "softnewsmag" because somebody stole my regular nickname so I'm just chilling here, waiting, like a bmonkey. I do not really have the smart phone to make proper use of twitter, plus I find it very annoying because everybody on there seems like they all have A.D.D or maybe I am getting too old for it or I was born this way. I plan to get a smart phone as soon as they stop making so many of them. I had my birthday last week. Noticed I said "had" and not "celebrated" because who really celebrates birthdays any more? I've never really been a birthday person, I love turtles - turtles are cool.
So like Jesus, I turned 30 last week and people wrote on my FB wall but I could not help thinking about all the things that I could likely get sent to jail for, now that I am old and SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER. I remember when I was younger and getting sent to jail was nearly impossible because I got good grades and my clothes were always neatly tucked in. Flash forward now, everybody is all serious, two-faced and moody, the weight of the world bearing down on them like a SUV with no breaks, making declarations that only serve to mask their helplessness in the socio-economic wasteland that is humanity.
It never ends. I may have to stop wearing t-shirts and stop driving around in small 2 door cars in exchange for a van with really bad gas mileage. Of course you could say the world is what you make of it but people never really leave you alone - there is always something else. Luckily for me I can still afford to buy chocolate cupcakes at Megamart and I can tell the lady that it is for my kids and she would not be the wiser. Small mercies.
When you are a programmer - of computers - like me there comes a point when you can either add 2 parameters to every function or remove 4 parameters and change all the other parameters to vectors. It is never a simple decision. You can either stop at the red light or run it and get busted by 4 cops holding automatic rifles. There is no question that everything would be better afterwards but one must way the impact of current stability over future simplicity - everything might just stop working and I would have to put my tail between my legs and go back to a old version - admitting defeat.
I don't know. Maybe. Its Tricky. You can either eat the same lunch you ordered yesterday or risk going out unto road in the hot sun where there is never any parking and maybe - just MAYBE, if you are careful - you will get your car towed away to the furthest corners of the earth. There is no winning. I could bring a packed lunch but who does that? And it may tempted me to snack everyday like a 5 year old - bun and cheese, bun and cheese, bun and cheese, black and yellow, black and yellow.
So what was I say? Oh, yes, So I have a total of 9 days before the next update of my game program. In programmer time 9 days is like an eternity or like 5 seconds depending on how excited the individual is inside. I could jump but I will never know how I will be 5 days from now - trying various wild combinations to get everything as it was before my mind was enlightened. Sometimes I wish I could just come to completion instantly and bask in the glory but I maybe born this way, whip by hair back and forth. I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep.
I only recently realised why I never edited my posts. Maybe it was the Indian in me that prevented me from seeing the light, gal come and kiss and hug me. There is so much code, so little time. Sometimes I wish I could lock off my brain and follow you until you love me, papa-paparazzi. Your songs remind me of swimming.
I bought a Chinese for 750 dollars and it was the worst, most expensive Chinese I have ever had. To add insult to injury I was running out of ketchup as well. I cry at the thought of being alone. I'm just taking it easy, riding round town mo-chain, mo-stealo.
I need to figure sometime to get all the stuff that I need to do done or I'm simply going to be crusted under the weight of my own dreams. Caching checks that my body can't pass. I need to fine I cool. Growing old is really annoying. Maybe I need to sleep with my windows open, in case you change your mind. Don't loose your selfish ways over me.
Wow, its a new year, its like the Earth went all the way around the Sun and didn't get hit by a single gigantic asteriod. Its like Armageddon didn't happen 12 years ago, that was a good movie. Why don't they make movies like that anymore? It makes me feel old. I can't believe that movie was 12 years ago. Now there is a whole new set of calenders that I will have to take down, hide and use the empty white back as a canvas for art.
I think I may take up painting this year on calenders that I collect from Mega Mart. I have so much stuff to do, crap, I hope I don't burn myself out. I definately have to get some new hosting, launch a app and change that thing in the toilet thats wasting the water after I specifically told it to stop. Wait till I get my money right. I am not going to do a "best of list" because you all know where the Archives are stored. All 8 years of it.
I have always wanted to be a Fellow in a learned society but I have yet to complete medical school, intern-ship and a residency. As I was mentioning to Alex, I would like to be so smart that people would come up to me and ask me questions and just leave inspired like a G6, sober girls be round me acting like they drunk. So fly, that I don't even have to care about anything. Peace Out.