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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3564/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3564/ <p>Last week or the week before was &quot;Womens Day&quot;, they were promoting and celebrating as normal even when there is a full on world war in which hundreds of thousands of people are being killed. Its like we live in a version of the Truman Show. None of it matters, it all exists to exist, drain our funds freedom and more importantly time. Time you lose you never get back. Little bits at a time. In a 100 years they will wonder what people were doing during world war 6 and we would have been watching netflix.</p><p>The cognitive dissonance with everything online nowadays has gone so far that I wonder why people even do anything anymore. it seems that helplessness has blended in with ignorance is bliss. Nothing is certain, everything is a wait and see, maybe possibility, the sky might be blue or it might not. Information, misinformation, omissions, currying facts - everything is wild. I might have felt like this before but it more vivid now. The world can never be the same.</p><p>The older I get the more I narrow things into a path. Everything must be for a reason. Things could be worse. Embrace the struggle and move forward. Do not let people waste your time. Most people have hidden needs and wants. People lie, omit information. They bide their time until the next celebration. You need to navigate all the conflicting vectors towards a point of escape. The journey wont be easy and certainly not fast. Take your time.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3564/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Mon, 30 Mar 2026 09:15:54 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3556/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3556/ <p>Do not let your self get stuck in a down mood for too long. There are things you cannot control. Forces that have no steering wheel and you are in the passenger seat. I just have to let it run its course while keeping track of everything else that needs to be done. There is always other things to do. Spinning things around in your head for too long is only going to make you forget the other things. It is a form of procrastination. Get other stuff done before they pile up. It will make you eel better and regain focus.</p><p>It seems like nowadays its much harder to be a true evil-evil group. A truly evil-evil person/group has to be devious and plan every aspect to avoid getting caught or just fkitall. While a Good-Evil group is legally evil, persistent and makes up all sorts of memes to justify the evil that they commit. If you are caught being evil-evil you go to jail. if you get caught doing good-evil you change the topic. Good-evil is at a epic high right now. You see it movies, Israel, foreign policy, Ai, its all over. </p><p>With all the terrible things happening in the world it is important to keep working on the things that you can control. Keep creating, keep moving forward. Stay in control of your reality. Sail your ship away from the rocks. You are your navigator. Even when everyone else is heading towards a precipice you do not have to follow the script. God and time.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3556/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Fri, 06 Mar 2026 10:16:16 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3551/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3551/ <p>Understanding your built environment is a key part of survival. You need to know who, why, what and how. The ignorance of other people is also a key part of said environment. Know yourself even more than you know others. You exist in your head as much as you exist in real life and these 2 parts must know each other. Everything is an advantage and a disadvantage. You never know which direction the arrow to the knee is going to come from. So evolution must be a careful mission of choosing your battles and min-maxing your strategy. Embrace the chaos.</p><p>One has to reconcile with ones past. Never betray your former self. You can feel sorry for yourself but let the sorrow direct you to a new place. Rather than going the same old rabbit hole. Create more, do more, navigate to a better direction. We know that choas chases us everywhere we go but take time to think carefully as you steer your way through the waves. Do not carry your past around like a bag weighing you down. Free yourself. If even just a little. Little by little until all you see ahead is new beginnings.</p><p>People will lie to themselves all their lives and if you tell them the truth they will hate you for it. But that is just how it is. You cannot spend all your time trying to change people that do not want to change. Live your life and you move on. Because your journey is not complete. There is still work to do and no one will do it for you. Hell is other people.</p><p></p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3551/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Thu, 19 Feb 2026 09:39:14 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3539/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3539/ <p>The best way I can explain it is that you exist on the inside or the outside of a circle. Sometimes you float between, in and out. But you are somewhere - in the end. Move through states at light speed. Sometimes the move is hard or soft. Throw your hands up in the air. Sometimes it can happen in a blink of an eye. You mind can be one place and your body is in another. I am very aware of the circle. Argue about the inside when you are on the inside. Do not argue about the outside because the outside is not within your control. Visa versa. You must recognize this fact.</p><p>There are things people only talk about in life and in death they talk about different things. Or maybe they are dead and they do not talk at all. It is important to recognize that we are not special. You are not special. I am not special. We exist for a time and a place and a people we, ourselves and I live in a physical and mental state that is bigger than either of us.</p><p>I really should write more but the writing takes time and thought. There are many distractions. Plus writing is not my only mission. I write because I can. Not because I want to but because I am chipping away at a stone wall hoping that it will mean something in the end. Is it masterbation? Am I flexing my knowledge of words and prose for the birds? Who knows? Total recall. Read this at my funeral.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3539/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Fri, 30 Jan 2026 07:57:13 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3531/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3531/ <p>New year. I looked back at some of my previous January entries of the logbook and established that this is not a consistent event. But I must write. I must keep sailing this ship forward. In hindsight it was just last year that we were heading toward Christmas, then it was new years and no we are on the flipside heading towards something else. It starts over or continues in my case. Now in out present course we must circumnavigate the course line towards our goals for this this year. Lets see what we can do. Let see how it turns out.</p><p>I have not been trying to wake up early. There is a not time like the present. Not time for reseting. I am not one to say that this year is &quot;my year&quot; because we live in a collective existence. Everything, everywhere, all the time. We have wants and needs. I have a short list of things that I want to do this year - a very short list. One way or the other I will not be distracted with all the things going on in the wider world. Things that I cannot control. God and time. Save me from the things I want.</p><p>Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air. But I hate exercise. I find it mind numbing. The activity is easy enough but its like trying to make a horse fly; a horse can jump but is that really flying? We can jump around, wave our hands in the air but we want to be the best. We want it all. Or is this a smalls steps problem? who knows.<br /></p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3531/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Tue, 20 Jan 2026 09:10:03 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3514/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3514/ <p>It is Christmas again and I am taking it low key as I usually do. trying not to die in a car accident. I think the overall reward of getting older is the ability to focus and free yourself from mental slavery. The downside is that my world view is so wide that I need to juggle too many things in life while time is finite. It is an immense achievement when I actually complete anything significant. I complete little things but perfectionism makes the state of completeness even more elusive as my standards get higher by the second.</p><p>I am losing track of the projects I have put off that are sleeping in my back burner. As the world gets tighter and the build environment changes I am forced to adapt to things I thought I had escaped in my earlier life and now things just move fast. Now I am here again in this space and time on the edge of a new year. A continuation of an old year and 4 months before a new birthday. Hear we go again.</p><p>Oh my camera died recently which is probably the reason I am able to actually put pen to paper, keyboard to screen. I will try to do as much as I can before I buy a new camera because I will buy a new one - I love photography too much. Too much that it might be killing me softly with its song. There wont be many best of lists at the end of this year. of course I will still do some of the foundational stuff but I will, hopefully, spend the last couple days in 2025 picking up speed.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3514/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Wed, 24 Dec 2025 10:09:07 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3485/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3485/ <p>At some point between your opinion and my opinion there is some form of reality. Some sort of shared content that is both yours and mine. The internet would appear to be a confusing muddy place in some aspects. In other aspects it is the future. In most cases it is nothing but a shadow of the physics that rules us all.</p><p>More and more it seems that most people do not care or know anything about anything. They simply exist to follow the breadcrumbs of a 50 episode soap opera until they inevitably die of old age and dementia. Somewhere between opinions there is a modicum of truth. That truth is hidden so that people never come to any kind of agreement. Eventually everything runs its course. God and time.</p><p>The past is a part of who you are. Its a waste of time to constant wish to be back in the past while ignoring the present. As a being you have to be somewhere in some space and time. That place is the place where you are. All your hopes and dreams and memories are elsewhere or in your head. The best thing you can do is be where you are and angle your sails in a direction. What will be will be. The past is complete.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3485/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Thu, 16 Oct 2025 08:38:32 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3466/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3466/ <p>The greatest tragedy of my lifetime is the current situation. Some say it is just a part of it. That we must fullfil the book. But in the future when all this death and destruction is no longer being justified and allowed. We will look back and be like wtf. Sing the song of freedom. Sing the song of redemption. No one can do it but ourselves. Only we can free ourselves from this cycle.</p><p>The older you get the more you are aware of the structure on which civilization is based. Everything is entertainment and so no real change is created. Nothing is solved. The struggle is the way we get by. The way we get by. While trying to escape there are structures just waiting to pull you back in.</p><p>Alot of time is spent denying things that are real and promoting fake things that are off into the future that you never reach. Nothing compares to you. It is 100% marketing and promotion so that you just keep living in fear or constant amazement at nonsense. Look out for evil people playing the long game. So here we are now in the represent; #freepalestine</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3466/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Tue, 02 Sep 2025 09:25:48 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3421/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3421/ <p>I may have mentioned that I hate funerals. The only reason I went to Kevin&#039;s funeral is because I knew him back in the day 30-ish years ago when ZLTOP came out. Maybe hate is a strong word but I would rather not attend my own funeral - just leave me to rot on the road - feel the sun on my face. Eitherway, I went, I sat in the back and I took some pictures. What is a man but a collection of vacation pictures printed on low quality paper. I also hate eulogies; I imagine there should be more to say about a man&#039;s life than which school or job they spent their time at. But what is man? We do what we can, when we can. We should never regret the things we survive.</p><p>I haven&#039;t written in how long? 3 months. I am surprised it is already April. The days are flowing together so quickly I cannot even understand where the time went. A cloud of doom is on the horizon - as it always is - but I just live each day as it comes along. But I really should be writing more so that hopefully people will have more content to read. There is no shortage of photography at least. Maybe I should buy a voice recorder to reduce the friction of pen to paper or, as in this case, keyboard to screen (you get what I mean). The thing with voice is I do tend to ramble on forever - forgive me if you have experienced it - but what must be said is often time itself. Time not confined to the keys on a piano.</p><p>I have had this tab open in my web browser for practically 8 months. I wanted to read the article but I kept putting it off for a later date. Well, this week I am trying to clear my to-do lists out because they are piling up higher than my head. The article turns out to be more social media trash. The usual amalgamation of words rearranged and sorted to appear qualitative but are really quantitative slop. I am glad I got that off my list. One day at a time, sweet Jesus, is all. It may be minor but it is done and my brain can feel some level of relief - at least thats done.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3421/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Sat, 05 Apr 2025 12:02:40 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3392/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3392/ <p>It is a new year. New in the sense that the numbers have changed but we and I are still moving ever forward. Alive, maybe not totally well, but we can still shift the particles so as to put pen to paper, order to the chaos. Or better yet create sound using the air in our lungs. I take a sip of water from the bottle on my desk and I appreciate its taste. I have probably done this a million times or approximately that amount. It doesn&#039;t matter. I must do it again.</p><p>We still have alot to do. Miracles to witness. Struggles to overcome. The question of whether any of it matters is still up in the air. In any case we must burn. We must do our projects. We must continue. We not merely to survive but to contribute to the sum of the things we accrue to give away. Eventually you will reach a point of completion or some kinda resolution.</p><p>I see some people trying to leave social media. On twitter people write &quot;good bye&quot; posts heading to bluesky - a website that looks and works exactly like twitter. Then return 2 months later saying that they are only doing it to keep the account alive, wondering why people are still tweeting. We welcome them back in solidarity, our fallen brother. We never left, just passing through, checking the numbers. But you feel a disdain, a subtle loathing, the dreck through the computer screen. It is as if they took the wrong bus up the road.</p><p></p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3392/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Fri, 24 Jan 2025 08:09:45 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3366/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3366/ <p>Things that come easy are often only easy for some people and other people cannot see the effort behind the task.  This is fine.  The problem is when you  seek constructive feedback when everyone thinks that you will take it badly.  I think people are being converted into marketing billboards.  You can see that I am really trying to stop and write my thoughts down as I did in the past.  Memories don&#039;t live like people do.  But I guess I will see you when we get there.</p><p>I often feel like I have lived this life before.  Sometimes you don&#039;t have to feel the cold to know that it is real.  Trust me bro I believe you, good luck with that.  Sometimes you are not finding solutions, you are just shifting problems around.  You are directing your attention to the wrong thing.  You cannot understand because it is just how you are and it is ok.  It is as they say; you never really understand until its over.</p><p>Other than that which we give away for free we are nothing but the sum of our parts.  The more you realise that some people (probably everyone) lives in their own private/public hell.  The more you understand why they feel lonely and would want have company.    Because humans are communal beings.  When you are not aware of the hell in which you live and that you just want company from people who are trying to avoid that hell then you are kinda stuck going in circles.</p><p></p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3366/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Thu, 21 Nov 2024 10:06:14 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3350/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3350/ <p>I was gonna start out this blog by recanting how I am not writing as much as I used to but why bother reliving the past?  One should forge ahead creating new paths of destruction or profit or whatever the better word is.  What matters is that you keep moving.  Keep flying up and up in the never ending search for the sun.  I am just gonna write this down and end this paragraph here.  It might not be much but at least it&#039;s something.  Something written down.  Of course in a computer but whatevs.</p><p>A thought just dawned on me about what I miss about CDs and MP3s.  I miss the point in time where you hear a song that you like and the song has other songs that play before and after.  It creates a bookmark in my mind that is hard to replicate when you are streaming random music.  You cannot really hold on to something that has no time or space.  This is why I rarely even listen to music on the radio.  I listen to curated playlists that the internet pushes out everywhere &quot;For You&quot;.  I don&#039;t want anything custom or personalised.</p><p>I need to go to the dentist, the car serviced and pay some bills all before christmas.  The sooner I get these things done the better.  because I just want to cruise through the season and watch the world burn. I just want to chill and not be apart of the chaos.  I have seen it all before.  If there is something I have to do I will muster up the strength to do it but besides that leave me alone as I sink into whatever video game or hobby that I find myself consumed with at that point in time.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3350/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Fri, 18 Oct 2024 09:36:02 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3335/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3335/ <p>There is this saying; that the bus that is going to hit you has already left the depot. It means different things to different people but the gist of it is that you should not worry about the future. The future will handle itself. Some people see destiny as something you make. But I had a new revelation; maybe the bus has already hit you. Maybe you are in a hospital bed of life and all your future sins have been paid for in full.</p><p>People are often more than they seem at the point when you see them. There is no direct way to aggregate a person into a whole. We all have to do something and the things you have done before are all bookmarks in our journey to the present. They can&#039;t be all things to everyone. We exist in points. We choose the best version of ourselves to fit the situation. It is a survival technique. Never curse the things you survive. Never betray your former self.</p><p>There is always the temptation to redo things in the past in the hopes of changing the future. The past and the future are separate things. This is a thought experiment that exists in separate spaces. The past is 2 things The future is 2 things. You exist in one but think about the other. You are never in both. In the future you think about the past And in the past you think about the future.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3335/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Fri, 30 Aug 2024 09:21:28 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3301/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3301/ <p>I have been really bad at updating the log book due to being lazy or habitually taking pictures all the freaking time. But I cannot complain, it is addictive; like a new age drug that you inject right into your sub concious brain. I need to balance it out but alas as with any drug you get sucked in sink or drown or whatever the water gives you. You need to spend your time doing something - might as well do something you enjoy. No regrets.</p><p>Nothing really matters in the end. All that matters are the things you give away for free and the people you help along the way. The experiences are bus stops along the way. A random sequence of occurrences lined up in a neat little row for your enjoyment or suffering. Or both.</p><p>At some point in your life you have to decide whether you are the monkey or the tree. Either you want to swing from branch to branch without a care except for the cursory glance to ensure that it is strong enough to hold you weight. Or you want to be the grower of branches for monkeys to swing upon.</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3301/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Tue, 21 May 2024 09:28:15 +0000
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http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3251/ http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3251/ <p>Being thorough and patient often is its own curse.  Once you find something you like you end up in a sort of a corner where you have eliminated all other options and nothing else can quite live up to that thing that you found.  I often find myself going back to that unfound state, then searching endlessly but always ending up at the same place.  Hoping for a different result.  Amazed at how amazing everything is but then narrows down to that one thing that is not even that amazing but is close enough.  It&#039;s just how I am.</p><p>You will rarely catch me talking about my personal projects.  Its not because I do not like talking about them but because I dont want them to become &quot;work&quot;.  I just do them because they peek my interest at the time.  The last thing I want is somebody to ask me about it every time they see me.  Especially when I am not actively in the zone of that project.  Some of my projects are really rapid fire, quick stops in the bathroom while others are multi-year collect-a-tons.</p><p>There is this one bar that I have been wanting to take a picture of for about a week now.  I saw a project on insta.  The trick is that the picture only works if the bar is closed.  But the place never seems to be closed!   I went there on a sunday morning at 8am and it was open with dudes hanging out washing a car in front.  I went there on Ash Wednesday at 10am - it was open.  5pm after work and yup - its open.   I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!</p> <p><strong>by owen</strong> <a href="http://owensoft.net/v4/item/3251/#comment">make a comment</a></p> Sun, 18 Feb 2024 09:08:54 +0000